Thursday, March 22, 2012

Hi girls!  or should I say Hello Women!
I'm into my busiest time of the year.  I think that Easter at work is even busier than Christmas season.  Other than being so tired I'm doing fine.  I have the hardest time getting out of bed and off to work.  Once I'm here all is well, but the getting here part is awful.

I am working very hard to limit my intake of sweets, desserts, candy, cocoa, etc.  It's really hard.  I've taken to having one Hershey's Kiss in lieu of a candy bar.  I'm trying also to watch what I eat so that it's not over greasy or fatty or sugary, etc.  Sure makes a difference as to what there is available to eat! Last night I cooked up some chicken tenders and then wrapped them in a corn tortilla with cheese and olives and hot sauce.  They were so good!  They must have been ok good for me as I didn't have any problems afterwards.  I also have been enjoying celery with peanut butter a little more often and trying to eat breakfast at home instead of stopping for donuts or greasy McDonald's food for that meal.  I haven't really spent any money lately either.  Every lunch time and drive home I think of all these reasons why I should stop and buy something, not necessarily food items.  We just have so much stuff now anyway, so it's good I'm not "goodwilling".  But it is hard to just drive right by the places that I know I can get my shopping fix at.  All these bad habits that need to be pulled into check!  When I do happen to go to a store, which I just can't anymore, I always find stuff for Cub Scouts, which I'm not into anymore.  That's a hard one because I was in Cubs for 5 years.  I've got to break myself of that too.

I didn't get my little walk in yesterday as the neighbor had just finished his Board exams and so took his wife out for about an hour and their 3 kids came over.  We watched a movie and then we realized it was snowing!

I told dad the other day that I'd achieved all my goals in life, and perhaps that was my problem in life right now.  All I ever wanted to be was a mom, then a grandma.  So now that they are achieved I have no direction.  Dad rolled his eyes at me.

I guess I just need to stop living in the past. Suck it up and move on.  I know that if I was reading the scriptures more regularly that would help, but I have zero desire to do so and I know that is Satan telling me I don't want to read them.  I'm so lazy, and I know that is him too.  I sit on the couch and think I want to go sew something, then by the time I get upstairs and start looking around it's just over whelming to say "forget it" and just turn around and go back down to the couch or to the bed.  It seems like there is a whole life outside of work that I'm missing.

Well, that's my woe-is-me story for today.  I'm just not sure how to snap out of it. Then everything becomes overwhelming, even the doing nothing so I just want to go and sleep somewhere.
ok, ok, i'm stopping now.

Any advice for the old lady?